planning

June 2016. The month after my wedding. The month they remove my colon. The month I have receive my ostomy bag, for the rest of forever.

I have Crohn's disease. I was diagnosed in 2007 after a few months of pain, bad bowel movement, and spending more class time in the restroom at high school. Since then I have had 3 bad flairs (times where my body just gives up on the medication and goes to hell). The third, which I am currently going through, is the one that has lead us to make the decision to remove my colon, rectum, and anus. It is planned to be done in two surgeries. First removing the colon and creating a stoma. After a few month, hopefully the other parts calm down, and it will be safe to remove those as well.

I am scared, but also relieved. I have a job that offers short-term disability, so I can make the financial part work out. I have a very supporting fiancee (who at that time will be my wife). And I have a family that, for the most part, understands what is going on. The fact that I will feel better, and in my opinion have a better life after the healing process, has also helped me come to terms with this.

Originally I planned on stating a YouTube vlog to go over this, posting periodically. I may still do that, but at this time I feel like writing. If I do switch over I will continue to post the videos here, if I can figure out a way. Google owns Blogger and YouTube. I am sure there is a way.

I haven't advertised this blog or what I planned on doing to any of my family or friends. If they find this I would very much appreciate if they don't use this to spark conversation and such. I love you all but I will talk with you about this when I am comfortable. What I put here is for me, and people who may be going through this. It is to help me come to terms with what I will be going through.